GIve Me Faith

Such an amazing song!

Quick Update

Friday after court, I went to North Carolina with my friend Keri. We had originally planned to drive to Greensboro, get her car inspected, see her friend Seth, and then come home. Ha oh our plans changed. Seth talked her into driving the extra two hours to visit her parents. So off to Boone North carolina we went. It was beautiful down there! Even in the rain!

We met her parents for mexican and then we had planned to drive back, but her parents invited us back to their house to sleep for a few hours before we headed home. So we went. I was SO tired by this point. We stopped at the store for some Fat Tire for me :) and made our way to her house. I had a glass of it(which was DELICIOUS by the way) and we headed on to their house. We hung out with them for about an hour and slept 3 hours before we headed back. We got up at 2 and made it home by 730. It was a long drive but so much fun!
I can't wait to go back!

This song is listened to every time I turn my computer on. I still need to buy it on my ipod. It's so catchy to me for some reason.

My life is a whirlwind

My days seem to be neverending now, or at least drama wise.
My (ex) best friend and I are still not talking because of something stupid I did.

My support system?
My best friend and cousin Amanda. Even though there is 5 years between us there is no way anyone could tell. First of all because she looks my age, if not older, and secondly because we act like bestfriends and sisters. Because we really are. There sin't a thing I don't feel like I can tell this girl. She doesn't jude me, but if she thinks I am doing something stupid better believe she will let me know, and if the truth will hurt she puts it in kind words. Kinda like tonight with the boy who has my feelings all jumbled up.
I JUST DON'T GET IT. I try to be happy and when I feel like I am the wrold comes crashing down on me, I know it is God testing me, but at the same time i just don't understand why I can't be 100% happy for a few days at least.
I know that I am lucky for each breath I take and should be happy to wake up in the morning, and believe me I am. Life isn't fair and I am finding that out lately.


My grandmothers best friend just lost her husband Thursday. They had been married for 40 happy years, and he suddenly died of a massive heart attack. She had no idea she was going to lose her husband that day when she got up, and chances are he didn't know he was going to be taking his last breath that day. I understand God was ready for him, but it is just so sad how quick a life can be taken from this world. He was a good man, and had lived a good long life of 95 years.

That is what I want. I want a long life filled with happiness and someone I truly love, and that loves me. I won't say I believe in a soulmate, but I do believe in there being that one person for you that sparks a fire in your heart.

So.... there is this boy and he kinda has MY heart. I am so tired of saying that it is over between us and five minutes later being ready to talk to him, I feel like I put 110% in the relationship(that doesnt really exist) and he puts hardly anything. But when he does put something it makes my heart skip a beat. I know I am dumb for being interested in someone who won't make me their world, or even try to put me in theirs, but I just can't help it. I am BOY CRAZY.


http://youtu.be/e8neDjQoBMQ

Climax by Usher.
Parts of this song make me feel like my relationship with this boy right now.



New motto after today: TOYS OVER BOYS (LOGO PROPERTY OF CARYN SHIFFLETT)

Only me folks

Oh boy.
I'm babysitting tonight and since I am I had to skip family dinner for the first time in a while. Which is okay with me. Last night I went to sweet Frog with Amanda, and I accidentally called my aunt Linda. Little did I know I was not on the phone with her and up until the 25th second that I realized that I had said it is "fucking freezing" and then I realized I was on the phone so I hung up. Then She called back but I ignored the call. Thank goodness she didn't hear me say that I don't think.

I love girl time with my cousin. I love the fact that I can talk about anything with her and that I can be my crazy self with her. More about my life later!

Catching up

There is SO much I want to blog about right now!
My life is just downright hectic!
Work is going so well. Some nights try me, but I know it will be that way with any job. I love a majority of my patients. I actually love them all. I have met so many different kinds of people, and most of the truly appreciate the help we give them. It is kind of weird becasue I remember some of the patients that the nurses don't even remember they had.

I can't wait until nursing school! At the current moment I love the idea of being an ICU nurse or an L and D nurse. Two WHOLE different fields. I love me some babies, but at the same time I tihnk I would love the intensity and the gift to work in an ICU. I don't know where my life will lead me, but God will show me the way,

I was also pondering a travel nurse but I am not quite sure about that.


I didn't take any classes this semester becasue I have taken everything for nursing that I can until I get in the program. It feels SO weird to hear everyone talk about school and I sit and do nothing. Well not really nothing, but but just not educational.

Oh sweet phone

ALOT has happened and changed since I started my job!

I love what I do! I can't wait until I'm a nurse!

I've learned so much and can't wait to learn more.

My life has been a rollercoaster! But now that there is a blogger app for my iPhone(which I got in Nov. from my daddy for my bday :) ) I will hopefully be blogging a lot more!

Snow!!

We are having the first snow of the year here! Pretty crazy that we haven't gotten snow until now! I'm loving it! The roads aren't too bad which is good.